Girl Anchorism.

When I say unfollow me, I mean unfollow me.

Both of you. Please and thankyou(:

Please, do us all a favour and distance yourself more.

I had an amazing evening(:!

I’m just too tired. I can’t be bothered. I can’t be bothered with school or people or BOYS.

It’s just time and time and time again. I really can’t be bothered anymore you know.
I’m tired 24/7, I’m sleeping most of that time. Nothing is getting done. Work is piling up. People are pushing me over and right now I just ewant to fucking hit a bitch.

I let the worse people into my life. I’m literally a magnet for trouble. I can’t even walk around my own fucking town because of some pervert. I’m in a complaining mood.

Goodnight tumblr.

Winter and I (un-revised)

The first, un-revised edition, before all of the bad things. Manipulative bastard that you were!

Winter and I.
Winter came so suddenly; I can’t say I was expecting it. Though I had been hoping and praying for such a long time.

Summer felt so never ending; it pushed me to extremes. Summer let me teach myself things that Winter shouldn’t. Throughout Summer I learnt that on must be alone to find oneself.
When Summer came I felt as though I had lost all my mirth and hope seemed such a distant paradise.
I took this time to breathe. I learnt who I was; who I am; and who I will be.
Only then was I ready for Winter.

Looking back; I see that I never knew that I had found myself until Winter found me.

Winter took me by surprise; A happy surprise was Winter. It was not love that I was beginning to feel for Winter; it was so instant; so sudden and sly. Love is such a fickle word and so insignificant to name the stopping of my heart and the tying of my stomach.

Winter fills my days with frivolous thoughts; secretive smiles and scarlet blushes. One cannot begin to mention the dreams and longings I hold for Winter.
I long to feel Winters cool breeze on me as he whispers in my ear. Everynight alone and lost I waited in my bed for Winter. So long.

Winter came; though Winter is hidden behind the tape. It hurts so much not to have Winter. All I ever want; all I ever need. It is Winter.

Winter wiped my slate clean; I just wish Winter could change my awful luck.

Winter you are all I want; and all I need. Take me to the universe where it is you and I. Make me feel real again. Human. Safe. Real.
I belong to nothing and no-one in this world. Nothing to tie me down; or keep me here. Keep me Winter. I could be everything and more to you.

Though I cannot wait forever Winter. For I may surely die. We can all live a life void of sunlight and filled with empty meaningless relationships and awful luck. But what sort of a life is that?
If you say you don’t want me; I will leave.

Bear in mind winter; I will always be waiting. For you. How can I leave you; when all I want and all I need is you?

Be mine Winter; for I am yours.

My love affair with Winter.

So, I wrote this at the near end of a pretty fucked up and abusive relationship around this time last year. Thankyou Myspace!

Winter and I;

Winter you came heere in the time when I didn’t know lies from truth. You took my hand and pulled me.
I always thought that you tried to show me love; but all I have felt is pain. You are trying to change my luck you say.

It is so cold. The frost is biting me. The sun is hiding and the rain clouds are floating above. I’m waiting for the rain to fall down upon me.

The nights are so cold; and your weather tortures me. Everytime I go out I have to cover myself from your harsh winds. Everynight as I lay in bed you beat upon my windows un-relentlessly.
I fall into a restless sleep; and you come to me. I can feel you all around me.

You used to being such a positive energy. The sound of your voice; the thought of your face; the call of your name would bring upon a secret smile and a scarlett blush. The thought of you would bring butterflies. Not rainstorms.


Those few precious days of this season when the skies were clear and I could enjoy you for what you are. The few hours where evrything felt real. Winter you brought up a sun; then you tore it away from me.

Spare these lies; Winter. Let me stare into the moon and find the truth. Let me breathe your scent and catch the butterflies.

The negetive energy you bring out now is so infectious. The rainstorms are so frequent and terrorising. The thought of you and my legs to weak with dread. Your sun is hiding from me Winter; it’s hiding and I hate it.

The day when the sun shone clear and bright; when the weather began to change and when Winter began to fade from my heart was the day I saw you for the last time. The last day I felt your touch.

So distant. So distracted by the other. So not the Winter I thought I loved. Not the Winter I fought for. But the Winter that brought the rainstorms. The Winter that brought the lies and deciet. The fakeness and the hate.

Winter; Spring is coming now. I can feel it in the air. In the energy. In the smiles and laughs.

I an see the clear skies not far ahead. I can almost taste the freedom and the happpiness.

I can feel the webs of lies retreating from. I can let go of everything that we went through.
I can’t see this fresh start you asked me for. I can’t see it because you can’t try.

The lies are always going to be there. The rainstorms are always going to come. Because I cannot disengage myself from you. I cannot untangle myself. And I cannot warm myself from the frost.

I once said that not being with you was harder then breathing. I remember that night; I remember the sky. The vacant stars. And the rainstorm.

Maybe now I’m not breathing. Because right now I don’t have the Winter I love.

And as this night dawn to the witching hour. As my eyes begin to wonder to my bed I try to say goodbye to what was. But I know I never will be able too. Because I still want Winter to stay.

Spring is hear Winter; The sun is shining and I have reached for his hand.
Because he is showing the love you hid. The smiles you lost. The dreams you forgot.

I don’t want to leave; but I fear you have let me go Winter.

Do I now reach for the sun?

Why are you talking to me, like nothing ever happened.

I’m shaking.